A Second Soul Mate (1/4); Luke/Seth, Ryan/Seth ; R ; internalized homophobia warning

Title: A Second Soul Mate (1/4)
Pairing: Luke/Seth, Seth/Ryan, Seth/OC, Carson/OC, Luke/OC, past Luke/Marissa, past Ryan/Marissa, past Ryan/Teresa and all other canon pairings.
Rating: R.
Word Count: 2,073 this chapter, 10,019 overall.
Beta: eckerlilas Thank you so much, hon. Without you, I fall apart. :-D
Warnings: Internalized homophobia and Luke participates in a gay-bashing in part three.
Summary: He felt like, post-Marissa, everyone could read it on his face, like she had been a barrier of invisibility that he had hidden behind until then, and they were just seeing the real him for the first time. The gay him.
Disclaimer: Me = Poor. Josh Schwartz = Filthy rich. Note the difference.
Author’s Notes: Above all else, I suppose, this fic is a Luke-fic. It follows him through season 1 and the start of season 2 as he realizes that he’s gay, and then it realistically deals with that. For those who don’t know, internalized homophobia is when a person doesn’t want to admit they are gay, and they hate themselves for the urges that they have.

( Maybe it was God's way of punishing him for calling Cohen “queer” all those years. Maybe it was Fate's sick, twisted joke. Maybe the cosmos decided that he hadn't gone through enough these past few months, and that what he really needed was one more straw to break the camel's back. Or maybe, just maybe, Luke would have to admit to himself that he liked guys and it was no one's fault but his own. )

A Second Soul Mate (2/4) ; Seth/Luke, Seth/Ryan ; R

Title: A Second Soul Mate (2/4)
Pairing: Luke/Seth, Seth/Ryan, Seth/OC, Carson/OC, Luke/OC, past Luke/Marissa, past Ryan/Marissa, past Ryan/Teresa and all other canon pairings.
Rating: R.
Word Count: 2,329
Beta: eckerlilas Thank you so much, hon. Without you, I fall apart. :-D (And special thanks to crystallekil for help with the songs.)
Warnings: Internalized homophobia and Luke participates in a gay-bashing in part three.
Summary: He felt like, post-Marissa, everyone could read it on his face, like she had been a barrier of invisibility that he had hidden behind until then, and they were just seeing the real him for the first time. The gay him.
Disclaimer: Me = Poor. Josh Schwartz = Filthy rich. Note the difference.
Author’s Notes: Above all else, I suppose, this fic is a Luke-fic. It follows him through season 1 and the start of season 2 as he realizes that he’s gay, and then it realistically deals with that. For those who don’t know, internalized homophobia is when a person doesn’t want to admit they are gay, and they hate themselves for the urges that they have.

( Kissing Seth—that had taken this…whatever it was, out of the internal and into the external and suddenly it was more real than he was prepared to deal with. )

A Second Soul Mate (3/4) ; Seth/Luke, Seth/Ryan ; R

Title: A Second Soul Mate (3/4)
Pairing: Luke/Seth, Seth/Ryan, Seth/OC, Carson/OC, Luke/OC, past Luke/Marissa, past Ryan/Marissa, past Ryan/Teresa and all other canon pairings.
Rating: R.
Word Count: 3,971 this chapter, 10,019 overall.
Warnings: Internalized homophobia and Luke participates in a gay-bashing in part three.
Summary: He felt like, post-Marissa, everyone could read it on his face, like she had been a barrier of invisibility that he had hidden behind until then, and they were just seeing the real him for the first time. The gay him.
Disclaimer: Me = Poor. Josh Schwartz = Filthy rich. Note the difference.
Author’s Notes: Above all else, I suppose, this fic is a Luke-fic. It follows him through season 1 and the start of season 2 as he realizes that he’s gay, and then it realistically deals with that. For those who don’t know, internalized homophobia is when a person doesn’t want to admit they are gay, and they hate themselves for the urges that they have. (And special thanks to crystallekil for help with the songs.)

( It was that moment that Luke realized that he and Seth weren’t so different. Seth had come to Portland to get away from the memories of the guy he loved who would never love him back…who could never love him back now. Seth had needed to escape. Wasn’t that what Luke had done? Hadn’t he left to get away from the memory of Seth? )

A Second Soul Mate (4/4) ; Seth/Luke, Seth/Ryan, R

Title: A Second Soul Mate (4/4)
Pairing: Luke/Seth, Seth/Ryan, Seth/OC, Carson/OC, Luke/OC, past Luke/Marissa, past Ryan/Marissa, past Ryan/Teresa and all other canon pairings.
Rating: R.
Word Count: 1,646 this chapter, 10,019 overall.
Warnings: Internalized homophobia and Luke participates in a gay-bashing in part three.
Summary: He felt like, post-Marissa, everyone could read it on his face, like she had been a barrier of invisibility that he had hidden behind until then, and they were just seeing the real him for the first time. The gay him.
Disclaimer: Me = Poor. Josh Schwartz = Filthy rich. Note the difference.
Author’s Notes: Above all else, I suppose, this fic is a Luke-fic. It follows him through season 1 and the start of season 2 as he realizes that he’s gay, and then it realistically deals with that. For those who don’t know, internalized homophobia is when a person doesn’t want to admit they are gay, and they hate themselves for the urges that they have. (And special thanks to crystallekil for help with the songs.)

( Sometimes, you meet your soul mate. Only they don’t agree that they are yours, so they like someone else. But you get over it. And you move on. And you find someone else…a second soul mate. A better soul mate. And it’s even better. )